Why you are looking for Jesus in the wrong places
The Eucharist is key. Yesterday at mass, my toddler kept saying in a loud voice right before distribution of the Eucharist, "Body of Christ..." "Body of Chirst..." "Body of Christ..." Normally, we try to get him quiet, but I told my wife, "it's fine, people need to be reminded."
This will one day reach the right person, the person that He had you write it for! Keep doing what you do, and He'll bless you for it. Love you!