I'm conflicted. I have been praying for God to bring the right woman into my life, for a wife and kids, since I was 13. I'm 48 now and it never happened. The Bible says it is not good for man to be alone, but i have no family, friends or Church community. God has not lessened my need or desire for a wife, family or community. Nor, has He provided it. I pray every day. I have surrendered my will to His Divine Providence. Yet, I don't get less lonely, I don't need family any less. I have tried everything humanly possible and "let go and let God." No change. I have tried to change. I have tried to accept myself as I am. I have made great efforts and tried just to accept things as they are. My only reason to even get out of bed is to care for my elderly mother. Soon, I will be absolutely alone. The truth is, no one knows me, cares about me or will even notice if I die. I can't make this make sense. The Bible and Catechism don't explain it. But, it is what it is. God doesn't answer some prayers. God doesn't bless those who love Him sometimes. God gives you a snake when you ask for a fish. Nothing you do can change anything. It just has to be accepted. Often, life just sucks. There is no joy. It doesn't get better. It only gets worse.
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I'm conflicted. I have been praying for God to bring the right woman into my life, for a wife and kids, since I was 13. I'm 48 now and it never happened. The Bible says it is not good for man to be alone, but i have no family, friends or Church community. God has not lessened my need or desire for a wife, family or community. Nor, has He provided it. I pray every day. I have surrendered my will to His Divine Providence. Yet, I don't get less lonely, I don't need family any less. I have tried everything humanly possible and "let go and let God." No change. I have tried to change. I have tried to accept myself as I am. I have made great efforts and tried just to accept things as they are. My only reason to even get out of bed is to care for my elderly mother. Soon, I will be absolutely alone. The truth is, no one knows me, cares about me or will even notice if I die. I can't make this make sense. The Bible and Catechism don't explain it. But, it is what it is. God doesn't answer some prayers. God doesn't bless those who love Him sometimes. God gives you a snake when you ask for a fish. Nothing you do can change anything. It just has to be accepted. Often, life just sucks. There is no joy. It doesn't get better. It only gets worse.